good get em out. but dont be so negative and pessimistic you need to be an optimist and stop worrying all the time cuz it just makes shit worse. deal with all this shit and one day itll be behind you. you keep talking about how your 17 and all that means is when you turn 18 you can do whatever you want. your a very beautiful girl with a great personality. the type any employer desires. youve got it in for life mal and youll be ok. everything gets worse before it gets better. and i hate that saying but im experiencing it first hand and im sure you are to. but you just gotta keep your head up and do whats right for YOU. its selfish but it just works like that. i want you to be happy and sucessful so if you cant do it for yourself do it for me. because i dont want life to take you down. i want you to take life and make it your bitch haha

Rejection's like an ice cold bath
But the water's feelin' good this time
And I hate that I misread you boy
But I can't resist no-crossing signs when
You're an open invitation to a heartache
A painful kind of good, I should just leave alone but it's too late

tannersierra: brightning my day with smiles and laughter
tannersierra: thirs not much i like doing with out her
tannersierra: wishing we wer together for years, just now keeping track
tannersierra: hopeing ill never have to speak the words wil u take me back
tannersierra: my first thoughts about u quicly became dreams
tannersierra: i wanna take you on a date you me the moooon and its beams
tannersierra: just hearing your voice keeps me going as time goes on ill fight for our love to gee growing
tannersierra: even when u feel like giving in , stop to think what we could have beeen
tannersierra: malia your the love of my life , try real hard babe cause one day i will make u my wife
as you sit there smileing from miles away, just at the sight of you im afraid i might have to ask you to stay, wantngg nothing but ur hand in mine, may we rest together forever in time !

starting over- killswitch engage ♥
Yeah;

Come on;

Do you remember,
What we used to have?
As if all our dreams were possible;
All that is destined,
Was you and I;
But distance,
Has torn us apart;
Forgive me,
For everything I've done wrong,
Lead me back to where my heart belongs;

Can we start again,
Go back in time to where we started;
Can we start again,
What we have can't be discarded;

Do you remember,
The promises we made?
But somehow we have lost our way,
Take me back,
To where our heart belongs;
Forever grateful everyday;

I know,
That you doubt my words;
I swear,
There will never be regrets;

Can we start again,
We thought love was everlasting;
Can we start again,
What we had just can't be wasted;

Silence that were broken,
And words,
That can't be taken back;
But you mean so much more to me,
Than anything,
Anything I have ever known;

And this is the hope for tomorrow;
That today you will return;

Can we start again,
Go back in time to where we started;
Can we start again,
What we had can't be discarded;

Can we start again,
Do you remember?
Can we start again,
Can we start again,
Go back in time to where we started

Just a step away from the edge of a fall
Caught between Heaven and Hell
Where's the girl I knew a year ago

Be with the one you love, Love the one your with. Enjoy your life, appreciate that person.. tell them everyday how amazing they are because you never know what could happen. Life is short, We take people for granted so easily, we get lazy and forget that in the end those amazing people made you who you are. They were there before and they will ALWAYS be there for you in the end. And Never forget that theres always that one person you were ment to love. Money, cars, houses, what your wearing, what your doing for that night.. will never matter in the end. Love is a land mark, a permenant footprint in anothers as well as yourself's life. Your family, your friends, the people that matter the most is all I need and Im perfectly content with that. Never forget who you are, where you came from and the people who helped you get there along the way. All we are is a ticking clock.


"A beautiful girl can make you dizzy, like you've been drinkin' jack and coke all morning. She can make you feel high, for the single greatest comodity known to man - promise. Promise of a better day, promise of a greater hope, promise of a new tomorrow. This particular aura, can be found in the gait of a beautiful girl; In her smile, in her soul, and in the way she makes every rotten little thing about life seem like its all gonna be ok"

Dear Malia,
I just read your live journal and it really touched me. I am sorry about everything that is happening to you right now and i could never imagine that all this could happen to such an amazing person. You are amazing and great, don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise. You do deserve something special and you will get it someday. I dont know who you are talking about but if you have feelings for this guy you should talk to him about it. I never you sang or preformed and if that is what you like you should do it. Always follow your dreams. Im sorry about your mom and stepdad i really dont know what to say about that. Malia i remember meeting you at summerschool and thinking how cool and beautiful and outgoing and fun you were, you were always smiling and you glowed, everytime i saw you you stood out in the usual crowd you were around, i could always pick you out. Things weren't going so well for me then either but you gave me advice then and i still remember exactly what you said. You told me, "things will get better just wait and see". You were right. Malia i know we haven't talked in a long time: however, i still consider you my friend and i always will, even if we never talk again or when you move away. i dont know if i am bugging you or if i am just embarressing myself with this letter, but i feel if something is wrong i owe it to you as a friend to try and talk it over. if i am bugging you just say the word and ill leave you alone. i wont be mad because i respect you and your decisions. but just know i am different now im not the same wild guy i used to be. I am fun but i also have a deeper side to me know. so if you ever need someone to talk to and dont know where to go, ill always be here to talk, You said you wanted reassurence but you had it all along, just look deep down inside yourself and i know you'll do what is right.
Have a happy birthday malia:)



TYLER: I PUT THIS ON HERE SO I COULD READ IT EVERYDDAY, IT GIVES ME HOPE AND A SENSE OF PEACE ITS CRAZY.. ALL I CAN SAY IS THANK YOU.

All men think and care about is themselves, and think with their dicks.

Its hard to try to get them to think with their hearts, or even get a concience :[ They would rather leave with trash then make it work with a good women.

why is our generation so fucked up? why do people try to take the easy way out. People dont understand that you have to work for the best things in life,, day after day minute by minute and all of your blood sweat and tears and yelling make it all worthwhile and make it the most special and treasured thing in the world and in the end, it will be there no matter what and it will be your biggest reward.


people give up hope, and faith way to quickly.

"We're so arrogant, aren't we? So afraid of age, we do everything we can to prevent it. We don't realize what a privilege it is to grow old with someone. Someone who doesn't drive you to commit murder or doesn't humiliate you beyond repair."

-P.s. I Love You

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Theres been alot on my mind about everything especially now that im getting older, im starting to get more mature and starting to think alot more about things and situations. I thought growing up was going to be groovy.. turns out that ever level [age] is harder and harder.

I just want to be able to grow up and go to the beach have a few brews watch the sunset with my man and [after i learn to play the guitar and ukelele] play one of those and just kickit smoke alittle and mellow out. Yeh not big plans I guess, I dont care about 5 story houses or farariiisss or anything like that.

College, im worried about, but i know ill make it. I need to get involved in something soon. Just not quite shure what yet? And we need to move soon. I think day by day every sane thought in my head is being swept away with the wind out here. I might start singing again :] and If I do that my mom says shell get me guitar lessons and singing lessons because its been awhile and to be able to control my voice and stuff and ill be able to write music like my dad :] [except more mellow]. That made me happier than anything in my life when I was young.
Im just lost. My life is just one big "?" right now. I need to get it back to the way it was! Happy Fun Sweet Mallypootz.

Well im taking every day by day, life is really short, so Im trying to fix it while I can.

One day ill be able to show the ones that matter most who i really am and that im not always sad and angry and depressed. I turned into this completely different person I dont even know? I will get myself back :]

http://s17.photobucket.com/albums/b61/skater_4_life555/?action=view¤t=0111092043.flv

I mayy not know alot but i know that we were crazy inlove and that the fires still there:[ still burning deep down inside.

So im sitting here listening to the beatles once again, thinking about my life.
I havent written in a long time. Moving Birthday Breakup School just a ton of stuff to add to the list of suckyness in general.
I think ive finally lost my mind?
It all feels unreal :[
My heart feels like swiss cheese :[

I wish I could show Him im not so crazy jealous or possessive and that im ready for this and its not just because its my first relationship. Just scared out of my fucking mind is all, the one thing ive ever wanted in my life since I was young was to be crazy inlove, and get my happy ending. But the thing about fairytales in life is both people have to feel the same way. I want to fall inlove and fall away with that one person; kind of become one person, One heart. The kind of love that makes a person feel full of life and totally alive. Why is our generation so hard? :/ Its simple. Dont do anything you have to be sorry about, then you wouldn't have to say it.
But forgiveness is the key to parts of a relationship. Trust, Honestly, Love.

I hate seeing couples, it makes me so angry and sad that i dont have that anymore :[
This has been hard on me, in every way possible and the thought of never being called his ever again makes my heart break little by little every single day, every single morning. I dont think ive ever been this depressed. I dont even know why I did it. It was a rash decison with someone getting inside my head and not following what my heart was telling me. Im just not ready to walk away just yet. Im still inlove with you. Yes you. You consume 100% of the thoughts in my head everday morning to night.

The more that I sit here and think the more I realized that even though he admitted he took me for granted I was so wrapped up in just being with him I never took a second to think of how really wonderful he was and what I actually loved him the most for. Those little things about him drive me insane. From facial expressions to habbits, to stuff he said to the way he walked or played guitar the couple times i saw him :]
We are so alike it fucking kills me. I dont think he loves me as much as I love him anymore :[ I just need him to see me in person, I think once he does I might be able to capture his heart once again. Its been the longest a month and a half of my entire life. I dont mean to flip and go back and forth, I know what I want.. and its you. Its just the fact that I feel like this is falling apart under my watch and it gets me so angry or like i said.. I just get scared because I dont know if I am what you really want?
Just give me alittle time, Please dont let go. Remember the feeling.. remember me.. pls:[
Love is the only thing that matters in this lifetime, from the time your born to the time you die. Your greatest achievement in life is just that. Its a true gift.
And I Love You. I dont want anyone else. Not now Not ever. Noone else could hold me and kiss me and make me smile and blush and glow the way you do. I still havent gotten to show you how rad of a girl I can actually be to you :[ and im sorry, I just realized Ive been so consumed into all the bad around me going on that I never payed attention to how much of a strain it put on you and I, and how much pressure it put on us. Im really not like this. I may be young, and part og being young is making mistakes but the mature part of it is looking at the situation evaluating the problem and letting go of it and forgiving.

No matter what you choose, No matter who I am with; I will always be yours.. whenever you need me i'll be there
you have my heart.. though its alittle tattered and broken id like you to take care of it. You will always be the love of my life even if you become just my bestfriend. There was alot of stuff i couldnt say though its not all of it, I can tell you the rest in person if youd like.


I MISS YOU TRAVIS DUNN<3 :[